I know according to the calendar it is technically Spring. I pay attention to the transitions of the seasons and the moon. I also pay attention to movement of the seasons of life that I am transitioning through in general life as well.
Apparently with the isolation of the virus it is causing me to have some different feelings about it. It is like being on vacation and forgetting what day of the week it is. It doesn’t matter that much.
Yesterday the wind was chilly. The sun is shining but it doesn’t feel like the trees should be turning back to green. I have noticed several places where the trees look drowned and dead instead of dormant.
I don’t mind being in the house. I don’t mind not being able to go anywhere other than the grocery store.
I will walk later today. I enjoy my time with my podcasts that are not talking about the virus. I am considering adding some running again but will have to work up to distance as I have run before. I question my motivations about it.
My writing mentor Caroline Donahue has been sending videos through Instagram that have made my day all week. Friday she talked about using tarot for her writing. It was a great reminder and brought warmth to my heart. I know she isn’t the most comfortable with the format but I appreciate it so much. She is hosting a Zoom call on Sunday and I am looking forward to that conversation.
I keep reflecting about why I am not anxious about the pandemic. Over the past five years I have dealt with my own situations of trauma and life changing obstacles. I believe this is why I am not panicked and unnerved at the moment. I have certain personal methods to deal with the issues at hand. I heard the Fierce Womxm Writing podcast today and she made a comment that touched my heart referencing the idea. I always have the writing. It makes me feel better.
I am also thankful to Laura Tremaine for introducing me to Dr Becky from home. She is amazing and so full of actionable mental health and parenting ideas. I already watched a video that will help me with certain students when I return to school.
I supposed there are all types of new and fresh things in my life right now to represent spring after all.